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} catch(err) {}</description><title>Ryan Van Meter</title><generator>Tumblr (3.0; @ryanvanmeter)</generator><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/</link><item><title>Full Stop reviews "Metawritings: Notes Toward a Theory of Nonfiction"</title><description>&lt;a href="http://www.full-stop.net/2012/05/23/reviews/tezapsidis/metawritings-notes-toward-a-theory-of-nonfiction-jill-talbot/"&gt;Full Stop reviews "Metawritings: Notes Toward a Theory of Nonfiction"&lt;/a&gt;: &lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;“Ryan Van Meter’s ‘I Was There’ focuses on a thorough investigation of &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span&gt;Janis Joplin’s exact address and its proximity to Van Meter’s home and &lt;/span&gt;&lt;span&gt;falls under the terrific category.”&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/23619051470</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/23619051470</guid><pubDate>Wed, 23 May 2012 11:50:06 -0700</pubDate><category>Publications</category><category>Ryan Van Meter</category><category>Janis Joplin</category></item><item><title>Photo</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m2fm4s9s8X1qbpso7o1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/21034931985</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/21034931985</guid><pubDate>Fri, 13 Apr 2012 12:00:28 -0700</pubDate><category>Jill Talbot</category><category>University of Iowa</category><category>Ryan Van Meter</category><category>Metawritings</category></item><item><title>My essay, "I Was There," is first up in the brand new Metawritings anthology, edited by Jill Talbot.</title><description>&lt;a href="http://www.uiowapress.org/books/2012-spring/metawritings.htm"&gt;My essay, "I Was There," is first up in the brand new Metawritings anthology, edited by Jill Talbot.&lt;/a&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/21034903933</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/21034903933</guid><pubDate>Fri, 13 Apr 2012 11:59:52 -0700</pubDate><category>University of Iowa</category><category>Jill Talbot</category><category>Ryan Van Meter</category><category>Metawritings</category></item><item><title>24th Annual Lambda Literary Awards Finalist Readings</title><description>&lt;a href="http://www.lambdaliterary.org/events/04/02/24th-annual-lambda-literary-awards-finalist-readings/"&gt;24th Annual Lambda Literary Awards Finalist Readings&lt;/a&gt;: &lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;SAN FRANCISCO – TUESDAY, APRIL 24&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://r20.rs6.net/tn.jsp?et=1109681718374&amp;s=0&amp;e=001rCLhKm_Rqtme1DORXgI5v9EqwFZJOExbuw3IMRnp-SsSrXrMftCTyB0up7V78NPr6RymUxEVkl5dFMdEs3f5eYRe00c8XfPT" target="_blank"&gt;San Francisco Public Library&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Latino/Hispanic Meeting Room A &amp; B&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;100 Larkin Street, San Francisco, California  94102&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;5:00 pm Reception&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;6:00 pm Reading&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Confirmed authors: Ryan Van Meter, Daphne Gottlieb, Justin Chin, Tirza T. Latimer, Jan Steckel, Malinda Lo, Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha, Jim Provenzano, Lara Fergus, Christina Hutchins, Nat Smith.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/20415070108</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/20415070108</guid><pubDate>Tue, 03 Apr 2012 10:33:53 -0700</pubDate><category>Events</category><category>Ryan Van Meter</category><category>San Francisco</category></item><item><title>24th Annual Lambda Literary Award Finalists Announced</title><description>&lt;a href="http://www.lambdaliterary.org/foundation-updates/03/20/24th-annual-lambda-literary-award-finalists-announced/"&gt;24th Annual Lambda Literary Award Finalists Announced&lt;/a&gt;: &lt;p&gt;“If You Knew Then What I Know Now” nominated for Gay Memoir/Biography.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/19632085512</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/19632085512</guid><pubDate>Tue, 20 Mar 2012 10:37:08 -0700</pubDate><category>If You Knew Then</category><category>Lambda Literary</category></item><item><title>Los Angeles Times Festival of Books Panel: “Love: American Style” with Ryan Van Meter, Nura Maznavi, Diane Farr and Meghan Daum (Moderator)</title><description>&lt;a href="http://events.latimes.com/festivalofbooks/"&gt;Los Angeles Times Festival of Books Panel: “Love: American Style” with Ryan Van Meter, Nura Maznavi, Diane Farr and Meghan Daum (Moderator)&lt;/a&gt;: &lt;p&gt;Sunday, April 22 - 3:00 PM - University of Southern California&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/19581948205</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/19581948205</guid><pubDate>Mon, 19 Mar 2012 12:11:03 -0700</pubDate><category>Events</category><category>Ryan Van Meter</category><category>LA Times</category><category>Festival of Books</category><category>Los Angeles</category></item><item><title>Rain Taxi reviews "If You Knew Then What I Know Now"</title><description>&lt;a href="http://www.raintaxi.com/online/2011winter-2/meter.php"&gt;Rain Taxi reviews "If You Knew Then What I Know Now"&lt;/a&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/17931471592</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/17931471592</guid><pubDate>Sun, 19 Feb 2012 21:21:00 -0800</pubDate><category>If You Knew Then</category><category>Reviews</category></item><item><title>Southeast Hall (Tables P5 and P6).
</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lyb9beK9YW1qbpso7o1_r1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;Southeast Hall (Tables P5 and P6).&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/16410657440</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/16410657440</guid><pubDate>Tue, 24 Jan 2012 09:47:18 -0800</pubDate><category>Events</category><category>AWP</category><category>Chicago</category></item><item><title>Attending AWP? The Events page is now updated with panel and book signing information.</title><description>&lt;a href="http://ryanvanmeter.net/events"&gt;Attending AWP? The Events page is now updated with panel and book signing information.&lt;/a&gt;: &lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;“&lt;/span&gt;&lt;span&gt;Eminent Debuts: Four Authors Discuss Their First Nonfiction Books”&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;“Is the Midwest Reshaping Creative Nonfiction? A Tribute to Fourth Genre”&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/16411162555</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/16411162555</guid><pubDate>Tue, 24 Jan 2012 08:35:07 -0800</pubDate><category>Events</category><category>AWP</category><category>Bookfair</category></item><item><title>"If You Knew Then What I Know Now" is included in Best of the South 2011 by The Atlanta-Journal Constitution</title><description>&lt;a href="http://blogs.ajc.com/arts-culture/2011/12/30/best-of-the-south-books-2011/"&gt;"If You Knew Then What I Know Now" is included in Best of the South 2011 by The Atlanta-Journal Constitution&lt;/a&gt;: &lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;“If there is a more gloriously tender account of growing up gay in suburban Missouri, we have yet to see it. In 13 linked essays, Van Meter traces a loose chronology of a boy who spent the first half of his life learning to hide in the closet, and the second, struggling to come out of it.”&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/15403274938</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/15403274938</guid><pubDate>Fri, 06 Jan 2012 09:08:48 -0800</pubDate><category>Atlanta</category><category>South</category><category>Reviews</category><category>If You Knew Then</category></item><item><title>An interview with the students of Jill Talbot's creative nonfiction writing class.</title><description>&lt;a href="http://brevity.wordpress.com/2012/01/05/ryan-van-meter/"&gt;An interview with the students of Jill Talbot's creative nonfiction writing class.&lt;/a&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/15359264209</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/15359264209</guid><pubDate>Thu, 05 Jan 2012 12:58:22 -0800</pubDate><category>Interview</category></item><item><title>The Cleveland Plain Dealer selects "If You Knew Then What I Know Now" for their Best Paperbacks of 2011 list</title><description>&lt;a href="http://www.cleveland.com/books/index.ssf/2011/12/the_best_paperbacks_of_2011_ye.html"&gt;The Cleveland Plain Dealer selects "If You Knew Then What I Know Now" for their Best Paperbacks of 2011 list&lt;/a&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/14979261689</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/14979261689</guid><pubDate>Thu, 29 Dec 2011 09:00:00 -0800</pubDate><category>Cleveland Plain Dealer</category><category>If You Knew Then</category><category>Reviews</category></item><item><title>GalleyCat selects "If You Know Then What I Know Now" as one of the most overlooked books of 2011</title><description>&lt;a href="http://www.mediabistro.com/galleycat/most-overlooked-books-of-2011_b44418"&gt;GalleyCat selects "If You Know Then What I Know Now" as one of the most overlooked books of 2011&lt;/a&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/14928037420</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/14928037420</guid><pubDate>Wed, 28 Dec 2011 10:58:08 -0800</pubDate><category>If You Knew Then</category><category>Reviews</category></item><item><title>The Millions Year in Reading 2011: Michael Schaub</title><description>&lt;a href="http://www.themillions.com/2011/12/a-year-in-reading-michael-schaub.html"&gt;The Millions Year in Reading 2011: Michael Schaub&lt;/a&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/13876495545</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/13876495545</guid><pubDate>Wed, 07 Dec 2011 08:37:26 -0800</pubDate><category>If You Knew Then</category></item><item><title>Justin Torres recommends "If You Knew Then What I Know Now" for New York Magazine's best of the year in books list.</title><description>&lt;a href="http://nymag.com/arts/cultureawards/2011/recommended-books/"&gt;Justin Torres recommends "If You Knew Then What I Know Now" for New York Magazine's best of the year in books list.&lt;/a&gt;: &lt;p&gt;&lt;img height="259" src="http://images.nymag.com/arts/cultureawards/2011/books111212_faves_560.jpg" width="560"/&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/13781043279</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/13781043279</guid><pubDate>Mon, 05 Dec 2011 07:44:05 -0800</pubDate><category>New York Magazine</category><category>If You Knew Then</category></item><item><title>lifeserial:

Just finished.

Justin begins talking as we enter...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lvnydiOJ381qzhsz5o1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://lifeserial.tumblr.com/post/13755747175"&gt;lifeserial&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Just finished.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Justin begins talking as we enter the mouth of the bridge. “I had a nice time tonight. I hope you did too.” His voice is almost too soft to hear over the rhythmic bumping of the tires along the segments of the bridge. The water is black, heavy barges with winking lights drift slowly below. I say that I had a nice time too. The green sign posted at the end of the bridge begins to glow at the margin of Justin’s headlights. The words aren’t yet visible but I know them anyway: Now Entering St. Charles.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;“I think finding nice guys to date around here is really hard, you know?”&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I don’t know how it happened, but I forgot to hold my breath the one time it feels possible that the bridge will collapse. My heart starts beating so hard I can hear my hot blood thumping through my ears. Suddenly all the air and saliva that make my mouth work disappear and so do all the words that I need to say to Justin because he’s got this whole thing so wrong. And he must have gotten it wrong from Lisa. The effeminate kid who doesn’t do normal boy things was the identity I was trying to obscure with this cooler one. I tried to create a new version of myself by hanging out with people like Lisa and Justin, but now I know I just look like the kid I was trying to erase.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;“I’m not gay,” I say.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;If You Knew Then What I Know Now&lt;/em&gt; is a series of linked essays by &lt;a href="http://www.ryanvanmeter.net/"&gt;Ryan Van Meter&lt;/a&gt;. It’s about sexuality, love, and coming out. If you’re me, it’s nostalgic as fuck. I couldn’t stop reading and I ate this book. I swallowed it up so quickly because many of the moments in it felt scraped from my childhood and college years. It’s more thoughtful and beautiful and smart than anything I could ever write on the subject, though.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I got it a couple of months ago and it sat on my nightstand while I worked around to it. I might leave it on my nightstand now. Special.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I would like you to purchase this book. Please &lt;a href="http://www.amazon.com/You-Knew-Then-What-Know/dp/1932511946/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1322974684&amp;sr=8-1"&gt;buy it with your money&lt;/a&gt; and read it. Check your local indie bookstore and have them order you a copy if they don’t already have it in stock.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Thank you for the kind words!&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/13780994780</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/13780994780</guid><pubDate>Mon, 05 Dec 2011 07:42:16 -0800</pubDate></item><item><title>Windy City Times review "If You Knew Then What I Know Now"</title><description>&lt;a href="http://www.windycitymediagroup.com/gay/lesbian/news/ARTICLE.php?AID=34756"&gt;Windy City Times review "If You Knew Then What I Know Now"&lt;/a&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/12926950578</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/12926950578</guid><pubDate>Thu, 17 Nov 2011 07:49:18 -0800</pubDate><category>If You Knew Then</category><category>Reviews</category></item><item><title>An interview with Switchback</title><description>&lt;a href="http://www.swback.com/interviews/_Interview_Ryan_Van_Meter.html"&gt;An interview with Switchback&lt;/a&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/12884402774</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/12884402774</guid><pubDate>Wed, 16 Nov 2011 08:31:54 -0800</pubDate><category>Interview</category></item><item><title>"If You Knew Then What I Know Now" named a Great Group Read 2011</title><description>&lt;a href="http://news.bookweb.org/news/wnba-celebrates-reading-group-month-special-events-and-great-group-reads"&gt;"If You Knew Then What I Know Now" named a Great Group Read 2011&lt;/a&gt;: &lt;p&gt;by the Women’s National Book Association.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/11915663443</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/11915663443</guid><pubDate>Tue, 25 Oct 2011 12:24:00 -0700</pubDate><category>WNBA</category><category>If You Knew Then</category></item><item><title>Brooklyn, New York.</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lt6wg8hZXL1qbpso7o1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;Brooklyn, New York.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/11557738083</link><guid>http://ryanvanmeter.net/post/11557738083</guid><pubDate>Sun, 16 Oct 2011 20:02:32 -0700</pubDate></item></channel></rss>

